All me

please..

i don't want to bring back the same book everytime
semester break when i go back home.

xD

jiayou lar~

YES
i wanna give myself a good, very good birthday present for myself as my 21st birthday present.

a promise to myself.. don't fail it. must realize it.

YES
YES
YES

Study hard now and aim for my master...

just day dream...

but i want it... =p

Put The Big Red Button on your site

I read other people's blog and i found this. too boring, so having some click.. non stop.. xD

try it. =p

squeezing brain.. still question unanswered.


Exams start yesterday... and at first, was expecting "hmm, can de" but somehow there's different version of answer making me "oh, ok, won't gua". anyhow, don't want to bother it as there are 3 coming after me real soon... and i don't wanna screw it up SERIOUSLY


any busting tips for me during exam? i won't have to study like hell

ANYHOW, good luck for the exam. still have to go through it.


wondering is it stress too much as my skin condition are recovering but since yesterday, my first paper goes on.. it all started again.. sigh.. i wanted a cure SERIOUSLY~~

you wouldn't know how it feels until you fell for it..

warning to ALL those DOG EYES(those who like to underestimate people) out there,

watch out!!! i'm going to do well...

F*ck you!!!!!!!!

since i don't know what to write...
so just update as no title..
since don't have anything special to share over here
2 weeks holiday didn't get any nice things to share

and now its already week 2..
time flies very fast
and i would say it is faster than last semester
anyhow, just try my best
and that's what i can say for now


"aim for the moon,
even if you fall,
you fall on the stars."

thanks to a friend who share this quote with me.

Today should i say is Thursday or Wednesday...

when will you be out?
and if you be released
will it be a good news for me or a bad news for me?

all the best for myself.. and to my friends..

next semester will be a whole new year and new semester with a lot of tougher subjects and assessments wait us...

がんばって

屋子是旧的，灰尘是新的。
墙垣是旧的，蕨类是新的。
日记是旧的，心事是新的。

秋千是旧的，孩童是新的。
大树是旧的，落叶是新的。
照片是旧的，感触是新的。

园丁是旧的，花儿是新的。
朽木是旧的，蘑菇是新的。
泪腺是旧的，眼泪是新的。

车站是旧的，乘客是新的。
故事是旧的，演员是新的。
人儿是旧的，伤口是新的。

One last paper for me to go... lol.. and there are so many days... wondering i will spend how many days in front of you lei?

wanted to spend all but will i?

=p

wasted my whole morning... doing course registration and ended up i didn't registered any subject... zzzz

yesterday while i was taking out my books and wanna put them back in where they should belong.. i was looking at FM(Financial Mathematics) back then.. and i have this kind of fear.. feel like don't wanna take that exam as too afraid to fail... not only for that exam but for others also..

count-downing for final: 9 days...

OMG~~ really OMG~~

Final is coming soon without i realize it.. until i look at my restaurant city... the daily quiz... LOL~~

wanna see how my hometown looks like?
go to my link on your right hand side...

click on myhometown serian.. and you will find out.. ^^

a big applause to the creator of the blog..

Finally, get myself a place to update my blog without disturbance(which i mean is nobody around me..it feels uneasy when someone is around you watching you type how you feel etc...)

plan to have this blog in mandarin... but too bad, the com here don't have chinese language support. so have to be in english..

recently being packed up with all the test... gets me crazy.. the most paper that let me down is life con 1...

right after the test.. i feel like wanted to cry... because i don't know how to do at all.. ya.. i do have some formula in mind.. but all seems stuck and cant come out... a real total disspointment for me.. making me have a thought of wanna just stop.. or maybe deferred... maybe for me.. i guess it was a rush for me..

really, things are getting worse and worse.. from spm till now.. i also don't know whats wrong with me.. am i using the wrong thing or what? or is my attitude leads me here...

few weeks ago.. during the replacement of business finance tutorial class...
i saw the white board "president tea session with last year students" "photo taking session"

wah.. i wish i could graduate at the same time with my friends.. and i don't want to be left out honestly... it feels great when you study together with your friends... outing together... and also graduate together... really don't want to be left out.. it feels awful...wonder how many out there has the same feeling with me now..

now i have 3 subjects left out... advanced calculus, statistical simulation and also microeconomics..

this semester was totally like .... was wondering still can "tahan" or not...

all i wish for for this semester... was no longer my target in my list which i listed down few months ago... but to past life con 1 with at least a D, and other 3 VEE subjects with B- and overall GPA over 2... so that i can continue next semester without probation and also with ptptn...

24/7, starting tomorrow will be week3
tests, assignments, will be keep on flowing through me..
+ all those replacement class, tutorial..
can't imagine what will happen in the next 12 weeks...

5 subjects with evil though
wanted to get you killed.

killing subject[3VEE(Statistic, Macro, Finance), and 1 subject(life con1) as for the pre-requisite for next semester(life con2), and 1 subject(stochastic) that will be offered the LAST TIME... can't afford to fail at all.. ]
owh.. pain...

dear lecturer, please show some mercy by setting test easy to do.. and final easy to pass.. all of us... will be thankful.. hehe...

A story worth sharing.. which i get it from my ex-school teacher...

Most of the time, when we meet something difficult, some of us might tend to give up.. or keep on trying...

For me, i would give up more than i keep on trying...

Consider the following:

Carrots, Eggs, & Coffee

A carrot, an egg, and a cup of coffee...You will never look at a cup of coffee the same way again.



Emma went to her mother and told her about her life and how things were so difficult for her. She did not know how she was going to make it and wanted to give up, She was tired of fighting and struggling. It seemed as one problem was solved, a new one arose.

Her mother took her to the kitchen. She filled three pots with water and placed each on a high fire. Soon the pots came to boil. In the first she placed carrots, in the second she placed eggs, and in the last she placed ground coffee beans. She let them sit and boil; without saying a word.

In about twenty minutes she turned off the burners. She fished the carrots out and placed them in a bowl. She pulled the eggs out and placed them in a bowl. Then she ladled the coffee out and placed it in a bowl. Turning to her daughter, she asked, ' Tell me what you see.'

'Carrots, eggs, and coffee,' she replied.

Her mother brought her closer and asked her to feel the carrots. She did and noted that they were soft. The mother then asked the daughter to take an egg and break it. After pulling off the shell, she observed the hard boiled egg.

Finally, the mother asked the daughter to sip the coffee. The daughter smiled as she tasted its rich aroma. The daughter then asked, 'What does it mean, mother?'

Her mother explained that each of these objects had faced the same adversity: boiling water. Each reacted differently. The carrot went in strong, hard, and unrelenting. However, after being subjected to the boiling water, it softened and became weak.. The egg had been fragile. Its thin outer shell had protected its liquid interior, but after sitting through the boiling water, its inside became hardened. The ground coffee beans were unique, however. After they were in the boiling water, they had changed the water.

'Which are you?' she asked her daughter. 'When adversity knocks on your door, how do you respond? Are you a carrot, an egg or a coffee bean?

Think of this: Which am I? Am I the carrot that seems strong, but with pain and adversity do I wilt and become soft and lose my strength?

Am I the egg that starts with a malleable heart, but changes with the heat? Did I have a fluid spirit, but after a death, a breakup, a financial hardship or some other trial, have I become hardened and stiff? Does my shell look the same, but on the inside am I bitter and tough with a stiff spirit and hardened heart?

Or am I like the coffee bean? The bean actually changes the hot water, the very circumstance that brings the pain. When the water gets hot, it releases the fragrance and flavor. If you are like the bean, when things are at their worst, you get better and change the situation around you. When the hour is the darkest and trials are their greatest do you elevate yourself to another level? How do you handle adversity? Are you a carrot, an egg or a coffee bean?

May you have enough happiness to make you sweet, enough trials to make you strong, enough sorrow to keep you human and enough hope to make you happy.

The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything; they just make the most of everything that comes along their way. The brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past; you can't go forward in life until you let go of your past failures and heartaches.

When you were born, you were crying and everyone around you was smiling.

Live your life so at the end, you're the one who is smiling and everyone around you is crying.

May we all be COFFEE!!!!!!!

After the story, feel like I was like Emma...
"It was too difficult for me.. wanted to give up.."
However, her mother do use a very good example.. of coffee...
other than coffee, we can use tea also right? =p

"就在最近这几天
我总是发呆老半天"

hmm...how to start this blog?
1st, i inserted this song lyric in the first part.. any idea of what song is this?
is 陈靓见 《熬夜》

even the topic i used for this blog was different from what i was thinking back then.. the topic that i had in mind is "first dissapointment in year 2010" but thinking about it... don't.. if not, there will be second and third.. and i don't want that...

before the day, i was thinking of even if i didn't make it, i am relief 'cause its over.. but when till that day... different things happened.

i didn't feel relief... i was like ok ok ok.... by the time i knew it... i had this feeling that i wanna cry...i was like "what am i suppose to do"

i wont deny it if you asked me whether do you still think about it...

but anyway, i do feel better... after @#$%^ to my friend... thanks to him...

chorus part of the song

"我曾经为你熬夜。只为了做你那生日卡片。
一起熬夜一起准备明天的测验
过了今天也许只能说再见
能不能在次陪我熬夜聊天
为你熬夜帮你录下你最爱的影片
一起熬夜一起在网上费话连篇
过了很多天我们熬过多少夜
就让我唱这一首歌。
请陪我熬夜到明天"

next time hopefully the case will be different... whereby we can see real smile among our faces... xD good luck for next time...

陈靓见 《熬夜》
就当作是这个星期的《我的心情代表作》吧...

黄靖伦的一首新歌... 收录在他的新专辑《OK MAN》
蛮不错的... 个人认为...不知你们认为如何？



我的妈

我以为有一天總算长大
可以大声说自己的想法
哪知道愈大就愈要識相
莫名其妙的人都要我聼话
我以为我可以不用假装
谁知道还要受这麽多傷
問的我悶的压力这麽大
我想跑 我想跑 我想跑
妈 我不想长大
我的妈 世界不像话
我的妈 爱情真可怕
我的妈呀 我的妈呀
我的妈呀 我的妈
妈 您真是伟大
我的妈 我想要回家
我的妈 未来太疯狂
我的妈呀 我的妈呀
我的妈呀 我的妈
當我愈多的欲望變黑洞
當我茫然的眼神變空洞
當我的热情被时光没收
我的灵魂乾枯需要被拯救
故事的發展可以被预料
浪漫的结局没什麽情调
孤单的老去實在太無聊
我想跑 我想跑 我想跑
妈 我不想长大
我的妈 世界不像话
我的妈 爱情真可怕
我的妈呀 我的妈呀
我的妈呀 我的妈
妈 您真是伟大
我的妈 我想要回家
我的妈 未来太疯狂
我的妈呀 我的妈呀
我的妈呀 我的妈
過去的快樂多直接
横衝直撞可以丢脸
现在的一切太扭捏
感觉不對
妈 我不想长大
我的妈 世界不像话
我的妈 爱情真可怕
我的妈呀 我的妈呀
我的妈呀 我的妈
妈 您真是伟大
我的妈 我想要回家
我的妈 未来太疯狂
我的妈呀 我的妈呀
我的妈呀 我的妈
我的妈呀 我的妈呀
我的妈呀 我的妈

哈哈... 他还有些歌也是不错的... 自己去听听吧... 这首歌就当作是这个礼拜《我的心情代表作》...

Summary of 2009:

Y1S2

every week get to go one utama, having fun with T3...
bowling... and McD... remember the topic of our assignment(Critical).. its about McDonalization... haha.. we are one of them...


does anyone looks different???? from this picture...

i move into a new house by that time, stayed for one semester.. at first, i thought we can become good housemate.. at least like my friend's housemate... we can go out for a dinner.. something like house activity... but who knows... that psycho... was truly a psycho... can't imagine i'm staying with this kind of people... luckily is for a semester only.. jagalah dia... but who cares about her... i have my rights.. and you don't trespass me... that's all...

i guess that an end for Y1S2... interesting part should be in Y2S1 i guess...

Y2S1

moving to setapak, new environment... at first, was new to setapak.. but sooner or later, get used to it.. so far so good.. but less one utama, less midvalley.. more on sg wang... lol.. its that a good thing or what? good substitution???

i guess this semester celebrate lots of people birthday.. haha.. "good timing"

Jason Yeo- paiseh lar... your bithday was on holiday.. =p.. see this year can get a replacement for you or not lar.. haha..

Kyoong- sorry for can't give you a memorable one.. was like totally mess up... hopefully this year(2010) will be a totally planned one...(HOPEFULLY)



Poh Tatt- his birthday, i would say that didn't have any surprise gua... thanks to Tian De and the gangs.. haha.. making him doesn't have any surprise feel...
hopefully 2010 will be different... you listen first lar... haha



Poh Tatt's birthday was so lucky to be on exam day... and it also show that it has come to an end of Y2S1... and its time for trip... haha.. yeah... this time we went for Sunway and Yuen.. wont be writing details over here.. i posted the details in my last post..

Y2S2- Short Semester

i would say a relief after knowing my result.. although quite dissapointed, but somehow i am glad.. at least i pass all and without worrying the pre-requisite thing.. besides.. i left out 3 subjects and it will be a hard time for me to catch me.. jia you for me..

continue listing people's birthday..too many to list lar... lazy...

Wilson Tin- having 跨国合作（kerjasama antara negara)...lol.. having 师姐（his girlfriend) coming over...




Chun Liang and Poh Yee- Made up as a couple.. isn't that nice... lol...



Yumei- she was kind of surprise... playing around... with her don't know what thing... ewww...



p/s: paiseh... don't have your photo holding cake.... but i got this one.. haha..


lastly, mine de.. hehe.. is it? i suppose..
nothing much... as usual.. 12am.. coming over.. too bad for them and too good for me.. i don't have to get myself over with those creamy cream... haha... thanks for the gift and the cake.. thanks for coming over^^




i guess that's the end gua.. actually there are some.. but didn't manage to get to them.. Jann Fei, jaga kamu...

This year end.. didn't manage to go back hometown because of expensive flight ticket... first time ever staying here for holiday... busying k-session.. not use mouth but use eyes..

first time make 汤圆 for myself... haha...
Christmas Eve...Alvin and the Chipmunks, Squekuels... don't go... wait for me.. haha.. i am going to watch you on screen... soon...

it has been a very long time since last time i updated my blog..
although sometimes i have thoughts of what to write..
but how should i say.. i'm just lazy... hehe..

went for One Utama for countdown yesterday... first time ever see "huge production" fireworks... and watched beyond... but not right in front of them.. but far away from them... haha

2009, i would say that i am total loser... in academic, the results was like... (i don't want to mention it here...) it was totally sucks... so in 2010, i was hoping it to get better.. i don't want to be under probation anymore... i wanna finish of my 3 years study.. without worrying of if i'm terminated, where else can i go... and my ptptn... my loan has been suspended.. 2010, for ptptn loan, its on may... so i hope i will get my loan again on may... yeah... wishlish on what to buy first.. haha...

any memorable things happen in 2009?
ei... what ar???

any wishes in 2010?
(i) pass... details...
(ii) excellent... details...
(iii) no worries... details...

*will be updated soon