how am i suppose to tell...
when what i want is not what i want...
when what i expect is not what i expect...
anyhow, i just have to accept the fact that i failed and i have to extend further.
life is full with obstacle. ya. it's true that there are people who goes through like no sweat but do you know how much effort they put in?
i can't change the fact right? so why not accept it. 强颜欢笑 like no big deal...
maybe there is reason for me to stay in again.. but i don't have the passion..
must think positive. live your life to the fullest. think it in a way round.
thanks to those who concerned. appreciate it.. if i can get to settle myself soon and get a solid confirmation. i promise that i will tell.. but i guess no one is interested in knowing it since it's been along time.
haha...
http://my.yahoo.matchmovegames.com/newsarticle/personal-finance-basics-for-grads
tiga tahun lepas di mana saya menuntut di UTAR (Universiti Tunku Abdul Rahman), bukan UNITAR.. tapi UTAR.. xD
从不认识大家的我们，直到建立起厚厚犹如study manual 一样厚的友谊..
然后 一转眼 再转眼 三转眼 三年了。
又是时候说拜拜，说实在 我还蛮不舍得的。虽然嘴巴还是死撑着，这是人生必过的一个阶层，没有必要舍不得还是什么什么。。但是我真的真的好不舍哦。所谓的overnight session，特别珍惜。谢谢你们的捧场，也在event的第二天留下来。打从心底，我真的好开心哦。event结束后，我顿时脑袋空了。做什么好呢？收拾也不是，发呆也不是。好想哭 哦。。。
还满完整的T3在帮我们的“司机”aka“大喇叭”庆生。^^
我的“好姐妹” Left： 小妹 aka Ella ； Right：大妹 aka Selina
谢谢你们把我的不完整变成“一点点”的完整。 =p
T3的四个女生，应该也是唯一一张跟你们合照吧？？
非常感谢 Anna 帮我们拍这张照片。好值得回味的一张。
其实从小，我很想要有一部那款相机，拍了立刻拿照片。 lol
也是一张Anna的杰作。。。 哈哈。谢谢
哈哈， AS的美女～ 能跟她拍照是何等荣幸啊。。（其实也拍满多张的。嘿嘿）
哈哈， 我的”大姐“。。 才发现 诶，原来我没有跟小妹拍到两个人的合照。。oops =X
左拥右抱。 =X 
Sporty Vanessa..=D
Always Jason punya May Ling.. jangan lah always Jason... Jason tu banyak EMO tau.. lol
如果要upload上来blog的话，我觉得我还有很多张要upload。。不如大家来我的facebook 看看吧。。。哪里有更多。。我只是选几张出来吧了。。
当时我记得我要在我的blog写很多很多东西，可是现在我能想的和我能写的 就只有 不舍 好不舍 想你们 好想你们
这么多位 所谓的 ”猪狗朋友“ 谢谢你们 让我的这三年 添了一分色彩
当让 也从你们身上 学了些 我没有的东西 或者是 让我有的东西 更上一层楼
衷心祝福你们 安康
it's been a month.. since last time i wrote some crap on my blog.. nobody is reading it.. after all.. xD
i'm talking to myself.. expressing how i feel(though i did not express all out because i think not all things can be posted here)
anyhow.. time to clean up..
for the last two weeks, i was busy with my shopping.. lol.. clothes for me(though i don't really need it for this new year as a matter a fact that i have a lot in my closet, i can say that when i wear it out, people will say is still new.. or they don't even bother), my family... and some other home need.. for this coming chinese new year.. until i'm fully packed and late for check in.. due to first time scaling my teeth.. its a good experience.. and doctor advice me to do it once a year.. so i guess i'll stick to that..
another thing is my skin problem.. previously i'm having this eczema thingy.. and i am so headache bout it.. it makes scars throughout my body. and now i'm glad that it is getting better.. so cheers.. xD
this semester, here comes again..
everytime there's nothing i can complain much except for my study study study..
this semester is a new semester for me.. and also hoping to go better.. as i don't really make it real late.. (let's just make that a new year resolution)..
i'm making effort on it.. =D
somehow, i started to get a feeling that it was not meant for me afterall.. why i said that.. i guess i know why.. and i will not say it out..
cheers everyone.. and enjoy chinese new year holiday.
1Malaysia
please..
i don't want to bring back the same book everytime
semester break when i go back home.
xD
jiayou lar~
YES
i wanna give myself a good, very good birthday present for myself as my 21st birthday present.
a promise to myself.. don't fail it. must realize it.
YES
YES
YES
Study hard now and aim for my master...
just day dream...
but i want it... =p
squeezing brain.. still question unanswered.
Exams start yesterday... and at first, was expecting "hmm, can de" but somehow there's different version of answer making me "oh, ok, won't gua". anyhow, don't want to bother it as there are 3 coming after me real soon... and i don't wanna screw it up SERIOUSLY
any busting tips for me during exam? i won't have to study like hell
ANYHOW, good luck for the exam. still have to go through it.
wondering is it stress too much as my skin condition are recovering but since yesterday, my first paper goes on.. it all started again.. sigh.. i wanted a cure SERIOUSLY~~
you wouldn't know how it feels until you fell for it..
warning to ALL those DOG EYES(those who like to underestimate people) out there,
watch out!!! i'm going to do well...
F*ck you!!!!!!!!
since i don't know what to write...
so just update as no title..
since don't have anything special to share over here
2 weeks holiday didn't get any nice things to share
and now its already week 2..
time flies very fast
and i would say it is faster than last semester
anyhow, just try my best
and that's what i can say for now
"aim for the moon,
even if you fall,
you fall on the stars."
thanks to a friend who share this quote with me.
Today should i say is Thursday or Wednesday...
when will you be out?
and if you be released
will it be a good news for me or a bad news for me?
all the best for myself.. and to my friends..
next semester will be a whole new year and new semester with a lot of tougher subjects and assessments wait us...
がんばって
屋子是旧的，灰尘是新的。
墙垣是旧的，蕨类是新的。
日记是旧的，心事是新的。
秋千是旧的，孩童是新的。
大树是旧的，落叶是新的。
照片是旧的，感触是新的。
园丁是旧的，花儿是新的。
朽木是旧的，蘑菇是新的。
泪腺是旧的，眼泪是新的。
车站是旧的，乘客是新的。
故事是旧的，演员是新的。
人儿是旧的，伤口是新的。
One last paper for me to go... lol.. and there are so many days... wondering i will spend how many days in front of you lei?
wanted to spend all but will i?
=p
wasted my whole morning... doing course registration and ended up i didn't registered any subject... zzzz
yesterday while i was taking out my books and wanna put them back in where they should belong.. i was looking at FM(Financial Mathematics) back then.. and i have this kind of fear.. feel like don't wanna take that exam as too afraid to fail... not only for that exam but for others also..
count-downing for final: 9 days...
OMG~~ really OMG~~
Final is coming soon without i realize it.. until i look at my restaurant city... the daily quiz... LOL~~
wanna see how my hometown looks like?
go to my link on your right hand side...
click on myhometown serian.. and you will find out.. ^^
a big applause to the creator of the blog..
Finally, get myself a place to update my blog without disturbance(which i mean is nobody around me..it feels uneasy when someone is around you watching you type how you feel etc...)
plan to have this blog in mandarin... but too bad, the com here don't have chinese language support. so have to be in english..
recently being packed up with all the test... gets me crazy.. the most paper that let me down is life con 1...
right after the test.. i feel like wanted to cry... because i don't know how to do at all.. ya.. i do have some formula in mind.. but all seems stuck and cant come out... a real total disspointment for me.. making me have a thought of wanna just stop.. or maybe deferred... maybe for me.. i guess it was a rush for me..
really, things are getting worse and worse.. from spm till now.. i also don't know whats wrong with me.. am i using the wrong thing or what? or is my attitude leads me here...
few weeks ago.. during the replacement of business finance tutorial class...
i saw the white board "president tea session with last year students" "photo taking session"
wah.. i wish i could graduate at the same time with my friends.. and i don't want to be left out honestly... it feels great when you study together with your friends... outing together... and also graduate together... really don't want to be left out.. it feels awful...wonder how many out there has the same feeling with me now..
now i have 3 subjects left out... advanced calculus, statistical simulation and also microeconomics..
this semester was totally like .... was wondering still can "tahan" or not...
all i wish for for this semester... was no longer my target in my list which i listed down few months ago... but to past life con 1 with at least a D, and other 3 VEE subjects with B- and overall GPA over 2... so that i can continue next semester without probation and also with ptptn...
